Mr Forever...

After spending a solid 9 hours yesterday finishing a book I haven’t been able to put down all week I closed the final page not feeling satisfied. Instead I felt angry and frustrating that Sadie didn’t fight for him. Sadie being the protagonist character who dies and then comes back to haunt her great niece to try and find love again in the form of a ghost as the only man she ever loved was sent away as they weren’t meant to be together and she didn’t do anything to be with him she just accepted It and she couldn’t go ‘to the other side’ (whatever that really is) without finding him again. So why didn’t she fight for him? Why didn’t she go to France, find him and tell him how much she loved him? If you want something, go and fucking get it! I believe that life is too short to remain in a relationship you’re not happy in, or spend your entire day gazing at the dark haired guy at the other side of the office who sips his latte in a way that’s oh so incredibly sexy. I received a text from one of my best friends yesterday:
‘I really truly thought that we would be together forever. That is why I am so gutted about everything.’ I didn’t know how to reply to this. I thought you’d be together forever too? I could tell last week that he wasn’t happy that you told everyone you were both ready for babies? ... Or that there’s someone out there for you that IS the one you will be together forever.
I know it’s cynical and somewhat naïve of me to believe this, but I truly do. Maybe life would be easier if he was just placed right in front of us to grab with both hands but what would be the fun in that? Believe me, there have been times when my heart as ached so much that I wished this was the case, but on a rational day I know it isn’t. How do you know if he is Mr Right if it’s all you ever knew? I don’t know if my Mr Now is my Mr Forever, but if I realise he is, I won’t be letting him go, I won’t be letting him sail away to France and spend the rest of my life wishing he was still the one I woke up to every morning instead of settling for the one who sits next to the sexy sipping latte guy in the office.

Oh and if you wondered, Sadie’s Mr Forever died many years before she did. Regret is a bitch!

Much Love, Is xoxo